Life-trying to be thankful

I am sitting in room 534 of Medical Center Hospital in Odessa looking out the window watching the world go on around me. In the bed next to me is my mom. I hate that she is sick, again. She should not be suffering, again. I should not be sitting here, again. Dad should not be having to be to gather things in McCamey, again.

In August 2007 Mom had a stem cell transplant to finally get rid of the lymphoma she had battled since 2001. It was a horrible ordeal but in the end, months later it was worth it. She was on the road to recovery. 2 weeks ago she had an appointment with her transplant doctor in Dallas and had a PET scan. the areas they had been watching for a couple of moths were going down, her body was fighting! Way to go new immune system!

Now, here we sit in the hospital, reminded that even though she has a new immune system, she still isn't healthy like you and I are. She has contracted pneumonia. Currently they are culturing her blood to see if it is vial or bacterial. She has s mass in her chest, on that was being watched by her oncologist as one of the "spots". The Dr here seems to think it is not a mass but fluid. She was tested and does not have the flu, either one. This is good as she is one of those people who is referred to as having underlying health conditions.

So badly I want her to just be well. This is want she desperately wants. She wants to see normally again. She would love to work again. Most she would just love to be a normal grandma who gets to play, run, sew, cook and keep up with her grand kids. My Reese has never really known a Grammy who isn't sick. There have been times when she has felt better and could do most things.

We'll just sit here and see what happens. Hopefully it is bacterial and the antibiotics will do wonders. Hopefully the mass is just fluid. Hopefully she gets better.

Out the window the world goes on.