Kind of...

I've hit a patch where I feel like I "kind of" do most things. I kind of exercise-2 days a week or so. I kind of cook- meaning I heat up frozen food some days. I kind of clean my house-shove things in corners so I don't trip during the night. I kind of work-yes I still work full time but lately I have DREADED work and feel so valueless at work. I kind of go to church-Shane and I go to worship while the girls are at Sunday School.

I feel no passion right now for anything. I don't like that. I want to be passionate about something. I NEED to feel passion.

I don't want to just exist in life, I want to make a difference. I need to find my passion....I'm tired of just kind of being here. Politics? Write a book? I'm on a hunt.....

Live from Big Spring it's......me!

It's a working title! I am blogging from the Subway in Big Spring, TX. I'd post a picture but come on......it is Big Spring! I lead an exciting life, I know. As most of you know I travel to surrounding towns for my job. Most often I can work a town in half a day and either be home for lunch or eat on the road on the way to my next town. Not Big Spring!!! I have just enough work here that I usually have to spend the entire day here which means lunch in random places. I have tried all the local dives....yummy but greasy! I've eaten at the Pizza Hut thinking salad bar and a piece of pizza or 2. They have free Internet but DISGUSTING pizza!
I have brought my lunch before and gone to a park to eat. It is a bit windy today so I opted for the Subway...healthy and FREE Internet! I'm not hard to please!

Spring has sprung around our house and not just the weather! Both girls are playing soccer this season. Reese is older enough by 9 day! She will be the youngest on the team but I'm sure not the smallest! Her first practice is the evening at 6:00. I will be really interested to see how she responds. I predict 1 of 3 things will happen in her game on Saturday. She'll either Knock multiple people down intentionally, score 7 goals or walk off the field and declare, "I don't want to do this!" All three are very much within her personality. I will miss her first game and that makes me sad but I am committed to working at our JL Clayshoot. Shane will try to go and his mom and my dad will be there. I'll send the video camera with someone.
Landry started soccer again yesterday. She is with the same team as the last 2 seasons. They are a fun group of girls that not only play hard but have fun and get along well. Her coach is phenomenal but is leaving after this season to take a job in Boston. We're very sad!! :(
Spring is charity even time around Midland it seems. Shane and I will hear Sarah Palin speak on Thursday night. AS far as I know we will get to meet her and get autographs. I bought her book and am reading it right now. Probably would not have except for this event. I'll post pics if we get them. Friday night we have Buckshot Bash, a dinner, dance and auction for Jr League and the Saturday ALL DAY we have a clayshoot for Jr League along with soccer games!
Next weekend we are headed to Ruidoso for one last trip down the slopes. Our friends the Halls are going with us so it should be lots of fun!
I try really hard to not over schedule my kids. They really enjoy just being kids and playing outside at our house. This time of year really stresses me out as my calendar fills up!
I'll be posting pictures of the girls periodically in all their activities.

Taylor Swift!!!!

For Christmas this year, the girls got tickets to see Taylor Swift. Our neighbors received them as well. We took the girls out of school and headed to Dallas on Thursday. The concert was at the American Airlines Center on Thursday night.

We were all decked out in our boots and dresses like Taylor wears. It was so much fun watching the girls get so excited. The opening acts were Gloriana and Kellie Pickler. They were both great. The moment arrived that Taylor hit the stage. She sang every song we knew and sang for 2 hours! The girls sang along with each song and we all danced and had a great time. I think it is a memory that will last for a long time!

Stinky Sunday Night

I stink right now! I mean literally I stink. I ran today. No, not just a minute ago, I ran at 12:30 p.m. It is 8:00 pm as I type this. I never bothered to shower. I though of it a couple of times through out the day. I always found better things to do. I did laundry, uh....I know I did other things today! We cooked a great and healthy dinner, grilled salmon, fresh green beans, corn on the cob and a fruit salad. We went to Lowe's to look at new patio furniture and then went to Shane's brother's house to pick up Landry's birthday present. That is all. Don't ya think I could have found time to shower. The laundry is still on the couch and coffee table, folded, not put away. Some days I swear I really could waste and entire day and not really accomplish much. I LOVE THOSE DAYS!

Great things today...We went to church. Sad thing, our preacher is leaving :( Dr Dyer has been here since 1995. Many people are sad. He has been so influential in not only my life, but in Landry's. He did the baby dedication for Landry and baptized her last year. She is sad too. He is moving to Austin. Our loss is their gain. We had a fun lunch at Rosa's with 3 other families. 8 kids in all. Wild!

I ran twice this weekend. Wow! That is great for me. I am trying to get in "baseline" shape to start training for my half marathon. I'm not sure when it is. Sometime between June and August. I am signed up for one in July but may change to one in June or I found another one is August. I am so totally co-dependent in my running. If my friend Melinda can't get into the race I'm registered for I am changing to one we can both run. Silly, I know.

Hopefully tomorrow will lead to more productivity, probably not. I will live either way...

Happy Birthday Landry! (A day late!)

Landry at 2 weeks old

Landry (Nov 2009)

I cannot believe that Landry turned 9 on Monday. I felt sad that day. I cannot explain why but maybe it has to do with that she has lived with us 1/2 the amount of time that she will live with us!

I can not explain what a true joy she is. When you are expecting you wonder what she/he will turn out like. What will they look like? Will they be smart, funny, inquisitive?

Landry is such an amazing kid. There is not a day that goes by that she does not surprise me with her courage, compassion, confidence,creativity, intelligence, helpfulness and maturity. She is a teacher's dream. She tends to think of others over herself. She is a second Mom to Reese and does a really good job!

I know we all try to raise out kids in the right way. I promise all the good in Landry is not our doing. I truly believe the spirit of the Lord dwells in her and guides her. This is the time when I am so thankful for the upbringings that Shane and I received that taught us the importance of Godliness.

One thing I really love is that she challenges me. She does not let me get by with yes/no answers. Why questions come naturally to her. She thinks outside the box when appropriate and follows social norms when needed.

She avoids girl drama at school. She is friends with everyone but tends to gravitate towards boys and non-girlie girls.

I LOVE that she is practical and reasonable almost all of the time. This came in handy when she was a small child. I learned early on if I could tell her the reasons behind something she usually could obey without too many objections.

I could go on and on with all the great things about my Landry. The things that make me most proud are the things others say about her. Her teacher has written me notes referring to her showing Christ to others in class. More than one parent has said they hope their little girl grows up to be like Landry. Every teacher she has had states they wish they had a class full of Landrys.

I am excited at what the future holds for Landry. The next 9 years scare me to death! There are so many experiences she is about to encounter. She will feel heartbreak, happiness, love, sadness, jealousy and shear silliness! If the next 9 years are as great as the first 9 I can't wait!

Happy birthday Landry, you are such a wonderful child. I am proud to be your Mom!